Good Evening Losers! I started this day on a positive. I lost .6lbs. Not my intended goal; but a loss is a loss; bringing my 8 day total to 11.6lbs.
I was thinking about this today. Last night when I was talking with my Aunt's they told me that getting my new job and losing weight will help me with my self confidence. I was like say wha? Do they think because I am overweight that I lack self confidence? I never once thought that my self confidence is low. I am shiznit and I will say it proudly. I am smart, funny, friendly(until someone pisses me off), pretty..no wait beautiful...and a all around wonderful person! My weight was never an issue of self confidence. It was a issue of self control. Then I thought..is there a difference. Sure I am an emotional eater; but it also comes with the fact that I LOVE food. That is where the addiction comes in. I was raised around strong women beautiful women, who asserted themselves in their lives. Never once have I ever thought I lacked self confidence or has that what I have been telling myself? I may need a few days to ponder that, but honestly, no I don't think I lack self confidence. My dad is a major part of my life and he taught me to respect other people I have to respect myself. "Never, be afraid to do what you want." "Always do your best." "Never start a fight, but if you are ever in one, make sure you finish it." He has always told me he is proud of me, not matter what, through the hard times. He never looked at me as a "fat" girl. I have always been hard on myself. I am hard on myself now because I let it get this far. I am the one who did this to myself. It wasn't because I didn't have self confidence. It is because I lacked self control; which I am proud to say that without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think I would have realized. Now I am getting control of my impulses. I don't feel the need to eat all the time. Especially when I am bored. Now I drink water when I am bored. Now I can say no!
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