THE DIET - Day 10 -- Encouragement

Good Morning lovely ladies.  I hope the scale was good to you all this morning.  I am down another .8lbs; bringing my 10 day total to 13.8lbs.  Not bad in 10 days.

There are days when I feel discouraged.  Sometimes I feel like I am never going to get to my goal weight.  I have so much to weight to lose; but then I think, I have so much to lose if I don't stay at this.  I want to be able to do things with my son, go to theme parks and ride roller coasters, go to the water parks and go down the slides and not feel like the fat chic from "Norbort".  I want this I do, but sometimes it seems so hard.  Hard to stay on protocol, hard to drink all the water.  But then all I have to do is visit the wonderful people at http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/.  These are amazing women.  They are fighting the same battle I am.  You all are succeeding so well and it is a true encouragement to me.  You all make the journey a lot easier.  Without their support and encouragement; I would have given up a long time ago.  Ever since I decided to start this journey, one thing I knew for certain, I would always be able to ask questions, talk about my fears, and laugh with you all.  Thank you all so much for being a rock I can lean on and the kick in the butt I need when I am feeling down.

THE DIET -- Day 9

Good Evening my friends.  Sorry I didn't post earlier, I didn't have the time this morning.  Well, I dropped another 1.4 lbs this morning.  That is the number I want...this will bring my total weight loss to 20.4 lbs in 4 weeks; but 13 in 9 days. :)  I am starting to feel better.  I noticed I sleep better, but I still get sleepy around 3pm.  But when I get sleepy I eat my 2nd fruit.  I don't eat after 730pm.  It seems to work for me.  After dinner I try to drink 2 glasses of tea sweetned with stevia; then 2 glasses of water with lemon.  I am hoping it will wash everything out by morning!  I am still fighting off the urge to eat what I want.  That battle is still raging along.  But hopefully determination will win!  With http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/  and all the ladies support I get, it will!!  <3 U all!! Good night!

THE DIET -- Day 8 -- Self Confidence?

Good Evening Losers!  I started this day on a positive.  I lost .6lbs.  Not my intended goal; but a loss is a loss; bringing my 8 day total to 11.6lbs. 

I was thinking about this today.  Last night when I was talking with my Aunt's they told me that getting my new job and losing weight will help me with my self confidence.  I was like say wha?  Do they think because I am overweight that I lack self confidence?  I never once thought that my self confidence is low.  I am shiznit and I will say it proudly.  I am smart, funny, friendly(until someone pisses me off), pretty..no wait beautiful...and a all around wonderful person!   My weight was never an issue of self confidence. It was a issue of self control.  Then I thought..is there a difference.  Sure I am an emotional eater; but it also comes with the fact that I LOVE food.  That is where the addiction comes in.  I was raised around strong women beautiful women,  who asserted themselves in their lives.  Never once have I ever thought I lacked self confidence or has that what I have been telling myself?  I may need a few days to ponder that, but honestly, no I don't think I lack self confidence.  My dad is a major part of my life and he taught me to respect other people I have to respect myself.  "Never, be afraid to do what you want."  "Always do your best."  "Never start a fight, but if you are ever in one, make sure you finish it."  He has always told me he is proud of me, not matter what, through the hard times.  He never looked at me as a "fat" girl.  I have always been hard on myself.  I am hard on myself now because I let it get this far.  I am the one who did this to myself.  It wasn't because I didn't have self confidence.  It is because I lacked self control; which I am proud to say that without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think I would have realized.  Now I am getting control of my impulses.  I don't feel the need to eat all the time.  Especially when I am bored.   Now I drink water when I am bored.  Now I can say no! 

THE DIET - Day 7

Well, I know I usually do this in the morning but on the weekends it may be in the evening.  I hope everyone had a happy saturday.  I had to be up and at them early this morning, Austin had is last soccer game.  Just enough time to have my egg, bacon, and tea then off we went.  Where he plays soccer at the HUGE complex and I swear you have to walk a half mile to get to the field..So I am taking that as my walking for today. :)  Then I spent the day with my mom (who is the greatest).  We went to the Movies...you know..the movies are a lot cheaper now that I am on this diet.  Didn't even want popcorn or a soda.  Just drank my water and watch sexAy Robert Pattinson play with an elephant :)  We also went to lunch. Now this was a chore.  We went to Texas Roadhouse.  YUMMY.  I was proud of myself; I didn't naw on the butter rolls with the cinnamin butter; I order a steak and salad.  I cut my steak in half and put it in a to go box. Yes the other half was dinner; with broccoli. 

Then the real challenge came.  We went to my Aunts house, my other Aunt bought chips and dip.  I was staring at them..but to my surprise...I really didn't want them.  I let them eat and talk eat and talk..and it didn't bother me.   So my willpower stayed strong today.  I if I do say so...am proud of myself. :)  Without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/  I don't think it would have been possible.

THE DIET -- DAY 6

Happy Friday to all my losers!  I hope you all had a wonderful week.  With http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/  my week was wonderful.  Since Sunday I am down a total of 10.2lbs.  That is amazing considering I had a slip yesterday. 

The wonderful part of being a woman is the fact that we have a certain week where you retain water, feel bloated, have cramps..and if you are anything like me crave sweets until it becomes an obession.  Yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore.. I gave in.  But instead of eating a whole king size candy bar; I had one hershey's kiss.  That was plenty.  After I ate it I chugged water like the water supply was running out. I didn't feel bad that I ate it, because for someone like me it is amazing that I didn't eat 10 hershey kisses.  One was enough to cure my craving, which I think without the HCG diet would never have happened.  I am hoping that today that craving is satisifed and that I can complete my goal of 20lbs by Mothers Day.  9.8lbs to go in that would be roughly 1lb a day.  I can do this.  Again, thank you all for all your support! It is so much easier when you have people rooting for you!!  Happy Losing and have a great Friday!

THE DIET -- DAY 5

Hello again!  So far this morning has started out great.  I am down another 1.6 pounds.  Bringing my total 5 day weight loss to 9.6lbs.  I never thought I would be excited to step on a scale.  But since I started this diet from http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I have been eager to see my progress!  I haven't gotten me a measuring tape yet.  That is another hill I have to overcome.  I was scared to find out what I weighed.  I am still scared to see my measurements.

U know what is funny.  When I lose weight the areas in which I lose is my face, chest, fingers, legs and feet.  My Shirts are getting to big; my rings are loose; and my shoes are to big.  My pants are getting there..slowly.  But I will take it where I can.  This journey so far has been amazing and it is just beginning.  It is amazing how being such a loser can change your life. :) 

Happy Dieting Everyone!!

THE DIET -- Day 4 --

Good morning.  I am down another pound.  Bringing my 4 day weight loss total to 8lbs.  After starting this diet from http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I am feeling better.  I don't feel as tired or as foggy.  I feel like I can think clearly and my memory has improved. :) (not sure if that is a good thing). 

I was thinking yesterday. (I know..uhoh)..  For people like me I believe food is an addiction.  It can comfort you through life.  Just like some people are alocholics ..I am a foodaholic.  I love food.  Food is awesome.  There is no "bad" food.  If it was bad..then why are they allowed to sell it?  Growing up in a town obessed with food is hard for someone like me.  We have a 10 day party here that celebrates food.  You have..the Oyster bake, niosa; taste of new orleans; the tastes of the north side...  You go down town in April; food vendors are everywhere.  Serving turkey legs, sausage on a stick; chicken on a stick; steak on a stick; with a tortilla...ummm  If it is on a stick it is awesome!  Portable food..YES!  Not to mention the tacos; omg the tacos!  If you haven't been to San Antonio you haven't had mexican food!  The food here is the bomb! So what is a girl whom LOVES food to do..  I eat.  I eat. and I eat.  All the sudden you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and you go "wow, No more cheese enchildas for me".  But it is so good you can't stop.  You know what that is ...an addict.  So to everyone out there....Hello..my name is Corrie and I am a foodaholic!  I am going to have ups and downs.  I am always going to be a addict.  It is a constant battle that I will be fighting; but in the end I will come out victorious! 

THE DIET -- DAY 3 -- Revelation

Good morning to you all!  So far this week has been great.  Very rarely do I say that on a Tuesday!  I told my boss that I was quitting.  She acted like she wasn't surprised.  I think she knew it was coming.  Maybe my unhappiness showed; even though I thought I was covering it pretty well.  For the past few days I have been waking up in a great mood.  Which I haven't done in a while.  Not to mention; I have lost another 2.8lbs this morning.  Bringing my total to 7lbs in 3 days.  Now some people find this to be "extreme".  I don't know why.  I feel better than I have felt in a long time.  I am losing weight and my attitude about myself is starting to change.  Without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ this couldn't have been possible.  I want to thank my friend Jennifer Keen; without seeing her progress and her sharing her story; I don't think I could have done this.  The knowledge that I know someone who is successful on this diet and I see her progress lets me know that this isn't just another gimic.  I have tried to many things...including Jenny Craig.  Jenny worked but it was soo expensive.  I lost the weight but when I couldn't afford it anymore I gained it back and then some.  When I went off this diet for 2 1/2 weeks and only gained 4lbs back..I thought wow..this stuff is going to help me keep it off! 

THE DIET -- Day 2

Day 2 of the HCG diet.  I lost 4.2lbs. I lost the 4 I gained back plus .2.  How awesome is that?  I love how you don't have to wait a whole week to see the results.  I like how you don't have to wait a whole month before you actually go down a dress size. :)  If you are truly serious about losing weight.  This diet is for you. 
http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/  I can't wait to see what tomorrow has in store for me!! 

THE DIET

I have re-started my diet again.  I was pleased to know that I have only gained back 4lbs of the 12 that I had lost.  I am more ready now to accomplish this goal than before. 

After I lost my 12lbs I experienced some set backs.  Day 11, I was at work and boss lady decided she didn't like my answer to a question so she thought it was a good idea to slap me upside the head.  I haven't felt anger like that in a very long time.  I set it aside and tried to move on.  Then the following morning, I experienced a revelation.  I was not happy there.  I was going through the motions of the job.  I all the sudden became miserable.  Not good for someone who is an emotional eater.  When I am sad..I eat...when I am happy...I eat..When I am bored... I eat...well, you get the picture.  During these past two weeks, I have been looking for a change.  I called everyone I could think of to see if they were hiring.  Then I got a call from the person whom I REALLY wanted to work for.  She scheduled me an interview; the interview was going great, then she said the words that I thought was the deal breaker:  "How bad will (boss lady) hurt me if I hire you?"  I thought..wow...this is going to be harder than I thought.  Then I decided to tell her why I needed a new job.  She agreed that what she did was inapproiate.  She said she had a few more interviews and she would let me know by early next week (4/19-4/20).  Well, April 20th came and went.  Nothing...  So on 4/22/...back to craigslist I go..ahh..JPL (atty) was looking for a bankruptcy legal assistant.  YAY!  So, I sent them my resume and 15 minutes later I get a call.  Mr. L; "Are you still with (boss lady)?"  "Yes"  "why are you looking for new employment" .. "Well, I need to find something with benefits and a future"...  "Well, other attorney's don't really like to hire other attorney's assistants.  It is bad form and it can cause problems."  My first thought was.."What?"  The second was.."I'm stuck".  After that conversation, I was miserable.  I went to the bathroom...cried..then washed my face..and went back to work.  Then, a call...  "Corrie, I am here with (other atty) and we would like to offer you the job...If we can afford you."  I was shaking.  Could it be?  Am I really done here?  She quoted me the amount they were offering...I couldn't talk..I couldn't breathe...$5000 more a year than what I am making now???  plus benefits???  "Thank you soo much, I will be more than happy to except your offer and I looking forward to working for you."  In 10 minutes, my life was changed.  I had a job with a future, benefits, ...I had a grown up job.  No more getting hit...No more having to deal with temper tanturms, no more having to put up with her!  Just when I thought I was stuck..just when I thought I had no future...When I thought I was going to have to start over; Someone decided that I was worth the risk ..someone thought I was worth something.  Now it is time for me to believe it too.  No one is as hard on me as me.  I have been unhappy with myself for a while.  I realize that now.  I realize that no one has been "holding me down"  I have been holding myself down.  It starts with the weight; It will end with the weight.  I need to do this for me and for my son.  I am ready to do this....for real this time!

Random Thought of the Day

I have been wondering about something for a couple of days now.  It has to do with a sensative subject.  I don't like to discuss this subject because ah..to each his or her own.  But my thought is Religion.  Me personally, I don't believe in "religion".  Don't get me wrong, I believe in God and I also believe in the greater good.  But I don't see what it is about religion.  Are Baptist better than Methodists?  Are Catholics better than Protestants?  Are scienctologists better than all of them? (Some would say so).  Are Athestist better than all of us who choose to believe?

 I will tell you this.  I am sick to death of some Athestists.  I don't care if you don't believe, that is your choice.  But for the love of God, stop forcing your beliefs on me! Stop trying to take God away from me.  I want to celebrate the day Jesus was born.  I want to celebrate the resurrection of Christ.  You want to know why?  Because, I believe.  Some call us morons, because we believe.  In turn, I call them souless.  When you get to wherever you are going and you have to answer for yourself; Good Luck.

I don't like to get into this whole issue of why I believe, but that is another blog.  But what I do want to say is this.  This country was founded on the belief in God and that he would lead the "pilgrims" to religious freedom.  This country was "freed" because the people believed God was on our side.  As the years progressed, we have slowly started to phase God out of our lives.  He is no longer allowed in schools.  Has it gotten better because of it?  When are we finally going to say enough? When are we finally going to tell the Athestist to stop?  Just because they don't believe, doesn't mean I don't.  Just because they don't want to teach their children the value of God and the difference between right and wrong, I have to make sacrifices to appease them?  Since when?  I am also protected by that clause in the first amendment that states "freedom of religion".  So, I oppose the fact that they want to take God away from our children, schools, and public servants!   And away from me.  What gives the right to try also gives me the right to say no!  So, I say no.