Well, day one is down and I lost 3.2lbs. It is nice looking down and the scale and seeing the numbers go down.
You know I am still not ready to admit to myself nor anyone else how much weight I need to lose. I think it is due to the fact that I am ashamed of myself for letting it get this bad. I blame myself for this. I should have taken the steps necessary to lose this weight years ago, but I think I was scared, but scared of what I am not exactly sure yet. Is it I am afraid that I would not be able to enjoy the food that has been apart of my life for so long? Is it because, I don't know who or what I am if I am thinner. I mean I like me. I just don't want to be a fat me. I know that being overweight does not make you who you are. Even if I drop the weight I know it won't change who I am, it will just change the way I feel and look. But the journey is a scary one. What if I fail? But I can't dwell on the what if's. I have to do this for me...for me. But with the help of www.affordable-weightloss.com, I can tell you I won't be alone and these folks are very supportive :) I just have to remember that I CAN do this. :) Happy Losing!!!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
New Me?
Hello everyone, I have decided that maybe I should keep a blog diary of my dieting to see if it will help me stay on track. It seems that whenever I begin this diet something happens. First time, former boss lady decided it was a good idea to hit me in the head. Second time, the ex decided that he finally wanted to be a father and started a whole new battle. So now the third time is a charm. So, I decided that maybe if I write out my thoughts and feelings on matters of stress it will help. Stress is what causes me to find the comfort of food. So, here I go .....again. I plan on sticking with it this time. I need to, for me.
So for everyone who wants to cause me stress.... :-p lol. HAPPY DIETING!!
So for everyone who wants to cause me stress.... :-p lol. HAPPY DIETING!!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
THE DIET - Day 10 -- Encouragement
Good Morning lovely ladies. I hope the scale was good to you all this morning. I am down another .8lbs; bringing my 10 day total to 13.8lbs. Not bad in 10 days.
There are days when I feel discouraged. Sometimes I feel like I am never going to get to my goal weight. I have so much to weight to lose; but then I think, I have so much to lose if I don't stay at this. I want to be able to do things with my son, go to theme parks and ride roller coasters, go to the water parks and go down the slides and not feel like the fat chic from "Norbort". I want this I do, but sometimes it seems so hard. Hard to stay on protocol, hard to drink all the water. But then all I have to do is visit the wonderful people at http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/. These are amazing women. They are fighting the same battle I am. You all are succeeding so well and it is a true encouragement to me. You all make the journey a lot easier. Without their support and encouragement; I would have given up a long time ago. Ever since I decided to start this journey, one thing I knew for certain, I would always be able to ask questions, talk about my fears, and laugh with you all. Thank you all so much for being a rock I can lean on and the kick in the butt I need when I am feeling down.
There are days when I feel discouraged. Sometimes I feel like I am never going to get to my goal weight. I have so much to weight to lose; but then I think, I have so much to lose if I don't stay at this. I want to be able to do things with my son, go to theme parks and ride roller coasters, go to the water parks and go down the slides and not feel like the fat chic from "Norbort". I want this I do, but sometimes it seems so hard. Hard to stay on protocol, hard to drink all the water. But then all I have to do is visit the wonderful people at http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/. These are amazing women. They are fighting the same battle I am. You all are succeeding so well and it is a true encouragement to me. You all make the journey a lot easier. Without their support and encouragement; I would have given up a long time ago. Ever since I decided to start this journey, one thing I knew for certain, I would always be able to ask questions, talk about my fears, and laugh with you all. Thank you all so much for being a rock I can lean on and the kick in the butt I need when I am feeling down.
Monday, May 2, 2011
THE DIET -- Day 9
Good Evening my friends. Sorry I didn't post earlier, I didn't have the time this morning. Well, I dropped another 1.4 lbs this morning. That is the number I want...this will bring my total weight loss to 20.4 lbs in 4 weeks; but 13 in 9 days. :) I am starting to feel better. I noticed I sleep better, but I still get sleepy around 3pm. But when I get sleepy I eat my 2nd fruit. I don't eat after 730pm. It seems to work for me. After dinner I try to drink 2 glasses of tea sweetned with stevia; then 2 glasses of water with lemon. I am hoping it will wash everything out by morning! I am still fighting off the urge to eat what I want. That battle is still raging along. But hopefully determination will win! With http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ and all the ladies support I get, it will!! <3 U all!! Good night!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
THE DIET -- Day 8 -- Self Confidence?
Good Evening Losers! I started this day on a positive. I lost .6lbs. Not my intended goal; but a loss is a loss; bringing my 8 day total to 11.6lbs.
I was thinking about this today. Last night when I was talking with my Aunt's they told me that getting my new job and losing weight will help me with my self confidence. I was like say wha? Do they think because I am overweight that I lack self confidence? I never once thought that my self confidence is low. I am shiznit and I will say it proudly. I am smart, funny, friendly(until someone pisses me off), pretty..no wait beautiful...and a all around wonderful person! My weight was never an issue of self confidence. It was a issue of self control. Then I thought..is there a difference. Sure I am an emotional eater; but it also comes with the fact that I LOVE food. That is where the addiction comes in. I was raised around strong women beautiful women, who asserted themselves in their lives. Never once have I ever thought I lacked self confidence or has that what I have been telling myself? I may need a few days to ponder that, but honestly, no I don't think I lack self confidence. My dad is a major part of my life and he taught me to respect other people I have to respect myself. "Never, be afraid to do what you want." "Always do your best." "Never start a fight, but if you are ever in one, make sure you finish it." He has always told me he is proud of me, not matter what, through the hard times. He never looked at me as a "fat" girl. I have always been hard on myself. I am hard on myself now because I let it get this far. I am the one who did this to myself. It wasn't because I didn't have self confidence. It is because I lacked self control; which I am proud to say that without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think I would have realized. Now I am getting control of my impulses. I don't feel the need to eat all the time. Especially when I am bored. Now I drink water when I am bored. Now I can say no!
I was thinking about this today. Last night when I was talking with my Aunt's they told me that getting my new job and losing weight will help me with my self confidence. I was like say wha? Do they think because I am overweight that I lack self confidence? I never once thought that my self confidence is low. I am shiznit and I will say it proudly. I am smart, funny, friendly(until someone pisses me off), pretty..no wait beautiful...and a all around wonderful person! My weight was never an issue of self confidence. It was a issue of self control. Then I thought..is there a difference. Sure I am an emotional eater; but it also comes with the fact that I LOVE food. That is where the addiction comes in. I was raised around strong women beautiful women, who asserted themselves in their lives. Never once have I ever thought I lacked self confidence or has that what I have been telling myself? I may need a few days to ponder that, but honestly, no I don't think I lack self confidence. My dad is a major part of my life and he taught me to respect other people I have to respect myself. "Never, be afraid to do what you want." "Always do your best." "Never start a fight, but if you are ever in one, make sure you finish it." He has always told me he is proud of me, not matter what, through the hard times. He never looked at me as a "fat" girl. I have always been hard on myself. I am hard on myself now because I let it get this far. I am the one who did this to myself. It wasn't because I didn't have self confidence. It is because I lacked self control; which I am proud to say that without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think I would have realized. Now I am getting control of my impulses. I don't feel the need to eat all the time. Especially when I am bored. Now I drink water when I am bored. Now I can say no!
Saturday, April 30, 2011
THE DIET - Day 7
Well, I know I usually do this in the morning but on the weekends it may be in the evening. I hope everyone had a happy saturday. I had to be up and at them early this morning, Austin had is last soccer game. Just enough time to have my egg, bacon, and tea then off we went. Where he plays soccer at the HUGE complex and I swear you have to walk a half mile to get to the field..So I am taking that as my walking for today. :) Then I spent the day with my mom (who is the greatest). We went to the Movies...you know..the movies are a lot cheaper now that I am on this diet. Didn't even want popcorn or a soda. Just drank my water and watch sexAy Robert Pattinson play with an elephant :) We also went to lunch. Now this was a chore. We went to Texas Roadhouse. YUMMY. I was proud of myself; I didn't naw on the butter rolls with the cinnamin butter; I order a steak and salad. I cut my steak in half and put it in a to go box. Yes the other half was dinner; with broccoli.
Then the real challenge came. We went to my Aunts house, my other Aunt bought chips and dip. I was staring at them..but to my surprise...I really didn't want them. I let them eat and talk eat and talk..and it didn't bother me. So my willpower stayed strong today. I if I do say so...am proud of myself. :) Without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think it would have been possible.
Then the real challenge came. We went to my Aunts house, my other Aunt bought chips and dip. I was staring at them..but to my surprise...I really didn't want them. I let them eat and talk eat and talk..and it didn't bother me. So my willpower stayed strong today. I if I do say so...am proud of myself. :) Without http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ I don't think it would have been possible.
Friday, April 29, 2011
THE DIET -- DAY 6
Happy Friday to all my losers! I hope you all had a wonderful week. With http://www.affordablehcgdiet.com/ my week was wonderful. Since Sunday I am down a total of 10.2lbs. That is amazing considering I had a slip yesterday.
The wonderful part of being a woman is the fact that we have a certain week where you retain water, feel bloated, have cramps..and if you are anything like me crave sweets until it becomes an obession. Yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore.. I gave in. But instead of eating a whole king size candy bar; I had one hershey's kiss. That was plenty. After I ate it I chugged water like the water supply was running out. I didn't feel bad that I ate it, because for someone like me it is amazing that I didn't eat 10 hershey kisses. One was enough to cure my craving, which I think without the HCG diet would never have happened. I am hoping that today that craving is satisifed and that I can complete my goal of 20lbs by Mothers Day. 9.8lbs to go in that would be roughly 1lb a day. I can do this. Again, thank you all for all your support! It is so much easier when you have people rooting for you!! Happy Losing and have a great Friday!
The wonderful part of being a woman is the fact that we have a certain week where you retain water, feel bloated, have cramps..and if you are anything like me crave sweets until it becomes an obession. Yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore.. I gave in. But instead of eating a whole king size candy bar; I had one hershey's kiss. That was plenty. After I ate it I chugged water like the water supply was running out. I didn't feel bad that I ate it, because for someone like me it is amazing that I didn't eat 10 hershey kisses. One was enough to cure my craving, which I think without the HCG diet would never have happened. I am hoping that today that craving is satisifed and that I can complete my goal of 20lbs by Mothers Day. 9.8lbs to go in that would be roughly 1lb a day. I can do this. Again, thank you all for all your support! It is so much easier when you have people rooting for you!! Happy Losing and have a great Friday!
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